It started like a seed, sprouting out its roots, anchoring itself to the ground. Then the plant started to take shape, and grew healthily day by day. At the end of the second month, it has blossomed into a glorious flower. Yet, nobody knew when it would be in full bloom.
At this point of time, it felt like being in a mind maze. I got lost in it. I looked for ways out. I hit walls and look for other ways out. I saw hope when a route seemed to be taking me out of this imprisoning maze. Yet, I hit another dead end. I look out for signs and clues, to be distracted and completely led off course once again. To make things worse, seeing these clues made me lost focus of the map I've created through my experience of running around the maze.
Today, I hit the wall hard. It woke me up a bit. I had a tiny inkling of an idea to get out of this distorted labyrinth. I don't know if this is another faux enlightenment, but I had a good feeling about it.
I really, really wish, I can make it out this time.
I WANT to get well. I NEED to get well. I want to be healthy, happy and content, once again..
my sentient self
ninnnnniee, dumb, but not tt dumb. fat + unpretty. Messed up + screwed up. Complainy + bitchy. One big lazy ass w a really big arse. :|