很多人对我说：“当了空服员，不用多久，你一定变！” 飞了六个月，我身上没有挂着空服员的招牌式的名牌包、名表，名什么什么的。我最贵的花费 - 我的新床、保险、家用、储蓄。 My only guilty pleasure: food and taxi. 我没有变得好慕虚荣、也没有自视清高。 我，还是原来的我。崇尚简单、自由的我。

I blogged this in 23 January 09. I bought a pair of Gucci boots on 27 March 09. A change in 2 months.

The boots are made 100% untreated leather. The kind I like. The more dressy kind of boots to go out in. Didn't want to wear my Ugg boots all the time (costs SGD 189). It costed me SGD 300.

I'm very troubled by this purchase. All the while, I've been quite proud of myself for not buying any branded stuff. No doubt I think some of them are beautiful, but I always thought it's just not worth it to spend so much on a bag or sth. But I bought the boots.

I bought them, because they are really something that I've been looking for. And I bought them also because they are Gucci boots going at dirt cheap price for Gucci standards.

But I felt immediate guilt right when I made the purchase. It felt like I have given in to something sinister, became a person that people will look down on.

I'm not even sure if the cause of the guilt came from the price or the brand. Would I not feel so bad if it is not Gucci? Or would it not make a difference because you're just not supposed to spend so much money on a pair of boots? I guess it's both.

Despite seeing so many nice branded stuff in Milan, I just couldn't bring myself to pay hundreds for a pouch/bag/pumps/whatever. I still think it's not worth it and pointless. But how does this justify my boots?

The boots had inflicted bank account damage and such emotional trauma that this would be my first branded purchase for a very long time.

Not sure if I can still hold my head high and say this, but, I have not sold my soul to the devil.