2.03.2005

I have a new motto to live by -- "What's the big deal? I can handle anything." Yea, I must keep reminding myself that it's no big deal if my boyfriend can't be bothered w me, can't talk to me for long, can't meet up once a week, or be Mr Evil when he sleeps. I'll just bully him back next time or something like that.

And what's e big deal if i do look much older than him? Let pple think we're 姐弟恋 for all i care! In fact, we're really 姐弟恋！Coz' I'm 1 day older. Who cares! The fact that he's a 1000yrs older in his mind than me, gives me a little joke to laugh w myself. He's a 小老人, and I'm a 老小人. Hahaha..I'm happy with that! Though being 老小人 is worse. Sometimes I think like a 12yr-old, and behave (and look) like a 40yr-old. WHY? Coz' I let too much things get me! I mind them so much that it disrupts my life and happiness! I'm pissed with myself! Such a weakling!

SO, I've decided all these have to change! Just be the NinniEe in e past, who sings "I don't give a damn!" like it's National anthem. No, wrong song. Coz' I haven't sang National anthem for a really long time. Whatever. Hope I'll be able to shout out "WHAT'S E BIG DEAL?" when shit comes to get me again. But period is really a big deal, you know.

Erm, this has nothing to do with my motto, but erm, does eating Indian Rojak (alone) for dinner sounds crazy to you pple?

ninnnnniee bitChed madly at 3:10 PM