1.07.2005

Seen Jun talking about it some time ago. I feel that right now. Surreal. The situation just have not hit me yet. Everyone's worry sick. Everyone's almost tearing or crying down there. Except me. I can force back my tears and emotions to console them. It's not tt i'm strong. Cuz it hadn't hit me yet. It doesn't feel real. It just doesn't seem like it's going to happen tomorrow or on Saturday. It's been a very long week. I hope I can handle it when reality bites me in the head. Please allow me to excuse from all of ya lives and just devote whole of myself to my family. (PS: family includes Teddy.) And i wana take this chance to thank my boyfriend. Hez been really understanding and right there for me despite being tired and busy. I threw some tantrums, cried quite abit yesterday, and talked alot. He tolerated them all. I guess he's the only person that i really talked to. Thanks Teddy. Glad to have you.


ninnnnniee bitChed madly at 1:37 AM