1.16.2005

Is it weird to have a boyfriend and feel that he's the one when u're only 19? Is it inappropriate to be with someone and put 100% of yourself in it? Is it increasing your vulnerability when u just drown yourself into the relationship and not protect yourself? I feel it's weird to think that Teddy's the one at this age. Hez not even in Uni yet, I have not even step into the society. It's not that i have no faith, it's just that u don't know what the future might bring u. Yet, i can't help feeling that he's the one meant for me. I'm just happy, comfortable and peaceful with him. I'm satisfied (and thus HAPPY, according to MY theory of happiness..ahaha). But i have friends telling me not to do so, for if something happens and the relationship fails, i'll fall damn hard. I know. I'll probably fall so hard that i can't stand up. But, what's a relationship when u don't put 100% in, for fear u'll hurt yourself? Isn't that being selfish and unfair? And how to enjoy yourself if u're fearing? I'm afraid, but i'm still giving my all. If i have to fall hard, then let it be. Then i shall learn how to stand up again. That's my way, and tt's how life should be. For those who don't believe in what i say, I'm pretty ok with that, cuz if it makes u happy, why not? I'm still going ahead with mine.


ninnnnniee bitChed madly at 1:55 AM