12.29.2004

Watched a film called "Kramer vs Kramer" during class. Meryl Streep said, " All my life, i have been somebody's daughter, somebody's wife, somebody's mother." She left her husband and son because she wants to discover herself. That got me thinking. My tutor said the western culture is very much based on individualism, and hence the "me me me" attitude. It's not so prominent in Asia as we are still held by values like filial piety and stuff. To think of it, I've never been very much my parents' daughter nor my sister's sis. All the time i was afraid of losing myself. All the time i wanted to be "Si Ning" and not "Mr Leow's daughter". And i realised there are alot of times that i didn't want to be "Ted's gf". What i meant by that is, I don't wana lose my identity. I'm pretty individualistic i guess. I'm still not "Mr Leow's daughter" or "Sipei's sister" but i'm definitely sliding into "Ted's gf". It's something that i don't want to happen, but i can't help it. And i did it willingly. I seriously lost my individualism in the relationship. I don't feel like myself. Sometimes i really loathe it. Being an individual makes me happy, but having a good relationship makes me even happier. So i rather lose it. And this set me thinking again. I've been rather unfair to my family. Well well, i'm all mixed up. Should we lose our individualism to the greatest good for greatest no. of pple? Should we lose ourselves in order to make more pple happy? Is giving up on our identities the only way to make the world revolve smoothly?


ninnnnniee bitChed madly at 9:44 PM